Maybe it comes naturally for others
to love and to be loved.
Not for me.
I don’t trust others,
or feel safe with others easily.
I’m afraid of being attached to others.
Nevertheless
I am still with you.
Once I escaped from you
burden of your expectations
rigid demand of obedience
fear of harsh punishment
I wanted to go as far as I could.
Yet
you came
to meet me
clearing all my misunderstandings
and false imaginations
proving your unconditional love for
me
telling me
all you want from me is
to love you back and to love
myself as you do.
That’s why I am still with you.
And I know one day
I come to the end
again I will say
I am still with you.
Reflection on Psalm 139:18b
